Relationships that aren't convenient anymore....

Where do I begin? I didn't plan to date her. My brother had been talking to her sister and was invited to go ice skating in the city on Christmas Day. My brother begged me to go and I eventually went. I met her and from the moment we met we held hands and could not stop talking to each other. Weird huh? She was so sweet and innocent and by the end of the day I knew it was destined to be something great. I asked her to make it official a few days later. It was supposed to be a couple of days later, but her birthday was on the 27th so I unfortunately had to wait till the day after. I asked and she said yes! We dated for a very long time after that. She came from a very strict Filipino/Chinese family. I had no car at the time, but I had a cell phone. We used to meet between school and work by our bus stops. She would go in one direction to her house and I would go in another direction to work. She would sneak me into her house while her parents were at work and she would sneak out at night to see me if I was out with friends. It was all so innocent and fun. Years passed and eventually her mother got sick. I had finished school with a BA in English and had taken a job selling cars for Nissan. We got engaged and plans for a wedding were set forth. That's where all the conflict arose. We had problems with the date we had chosen because it conflicted with my Easter due to the fact that I am Greek Orthodox. Also her parents did not want to step foot into a Greek Orthodox church, don't know why. She was very subservient to her parents. We did whatever made them happy. We decided to hire a deacon (Catholic priest that left the church to get married). One thing led to another and we broke up on Christmas Day 11 years later ironically. It's too much to explain, but it was a conflict between the parents. Finances were basically the issue, sadly enough. We sure had some good times and even after we broke up we continued to see each other. I always struggled with completing my schooling which I fought really hard to finish. I had never been helped by my parents financially and had also done a lot of moving with my twin brother. We had been on our own since we were about 20. It hasn't been easy at all. Let me not get off the subject. She eventually met someone else. Someone who could take care of her and who was financially ready to support her. Here I am alone, financially strapped and nowhere to go. I am estimating that she has known this guy for no longer than 10 months and is already engaged to him. It confuses me very much and even though I think it would be so hard to be together, I am hurt. I feel that people go in the direction that is convenient for them. I am very resilient and will become stronger from this, but in the meantime feel deserted. I know I've been all over the place with this long ass blog, but if anyone out there can reflect on this maybe it can get me to the road of recovery a lot faster than I am.